A poem.

Sleep just would not come to me last night! I read until I could barely keep my eyes open, and then I still couldn't fall asleep! It was 4 am and I had to be up at 10 am. I attempted writing my thoughts in my journal, but that didn't help either. So, I left my bed and tried out the couch. Still nothing. Finally, this poem formed in my mind! I typed it out in my phone's notebook and AT LAST I was able to fall asleep!!

Can't sleep
My thoughts just wander
I try to write them down
But they fight the page
They squirm beneath my fine tip pen
And jump back into my head
To reel past again.

Luckily, I didn't even have to wake up for school. We had a snow day! So I was able to take a nice afternoon nap. :)

I mentioned that I read for awhile... So I might as well share what book I am pursuing. I am finally reading the third book of the Twilight series, Eclipse. I read Twilight a little while before it became super popular. I remember seeing it advertised in Seventeen magazine. Reading it began my obsession with books about vampires. I don't even remember how many different books I read, but it was a blood drinker filled summer for me! I am about halfway through Eclipse, and so far I am really enjoying it. One learns a lot more about the Cullen family's history and the history of the Quileute legends. I love love love history, so I have found this book to be quite interesting.



And now... A quote from the book:

"I love him. Not because he’s beautiful or because he’s rich! I’d much rather he weren’t either one. It would even out the gap between us just a little bit — because he’d still be the most loving and unselfish and brilliant and decent person I’ve ever met. Of course I love him. How hard is that to understand?" -Bella Swan

Ahh, love...(This isn't from the book.)

"Love involves a peculiar unfathomable combination of understanding and misunderstanding."

Sometimes if we would just say precisely what we mean, we wouldn't suffer from the pain and hurt of the misunderstanding. But... We don't. We are afraid of rejection. I know I am guilty of holding back my thoughts. Even now, when I want so badly to share my feelings with the one person I think about most often, I just can't do it.

(And now I am going to blunder on with more thoughts... :P)

I believe in God. I have faith that He does exist. I am not a perfect person by any means. I do make mistakes and I do sin, but the wonderful thing is that I believe He forgives me for all of my missteps, and I believe my mistakes are meant to happen and that they all play a part in shaping the person I am. I also believe that He has someone planned for us. Like, I believe that He knows who He wants me to spend my life with. Thing is, I just wish he would let me in on that knowledge. I know the exact person I would choose if I had to right now. Is that who God has planned for me...? I don't know. I trust in Him, though, and I know in His time I will know. Funny guy, that God. Probably laughs when we talk about things getting done when WE want them to be done. So, I imagine the aforementioned individual will know my exact feelings in time, when we are all ready.

If you feel ready to share your true feelings with someone, then just take the leap and do it. If you trust, God will catch you, even if you fall.