Filing Cabinet

"Filing cabinets are a world of wonder and treachery." -A friend's status on Facebook today...

When I see or hear something, anything, my mind moves in many directions! Then, I find myself saying something or asking a question about what I am thinking, and having to explain my thought process to the people I am with.

Anyways, I pictured a standard filing cabinet. Maybe white. 3 drawers. Someone sifting through the countless numbers of files. Then I thought about memory banks being a series of filing cabinets. I have seen the comparison before, which is probably what made me think of it.... Then, thinking of that made me think of my own personal memories.

I know I have just finished my second year of college, and that means I have been out of high school for two years... But it's still pretty difficult for me to believe. So many memories that seem like they could not have happened 2+ years ago. So many decisions then that already have affected who I am and how I live now.

It's not a bad thing to think back, but it wouldn't be very good to dwell on the memories and not to live in the present. Sometimes I do that. I get lost in thoughts of what has happened and sometimes I wish I was back in high school. Would I make different decisions? Of course. I don't know many people that wouldn't... There are a few key choices I sometimes wish I would have made differently. For instance, I don't think I would have taken college classes in high school, for one. That kind of goes back to my last post. I didn't know what I wanted to do with my life then. I still don't. But, do you see what I mean? Thinking about all of that makes one feel stuck. And I don't want to be stuck anymore.

I don't have a crystal clear picture of where I want to go in life, but at this point I know a lot of things I would like to happen. Living in the past isn't going to bring me any of what I want. So I try to live the best I can, enjoy what I have in the present, and work, hope, and pray for a happy future.

"All that I'm after is a life full of laughter..." ~Daughtry